KAREN Stoker was planning to wed her soul mate on her 45th birthday next June.
Instead, Ms Stoker will now be organising Alan Purdy's funeral after a tragic motorcycle crash claimed his life.
Here is her heartbreaking tribute to him:
"You're gone ... but where?
I can't call you on the phone, I can't knock on your door.
No matter how loud I scream you can't respond.
No one but me really knows how funny you were, how generous with your heart and soul you were, how there was nothing that could stop you from giving me everything I needed and wanted... except this.
I want to hug you and tell you I love you again.
I just want to sit here and have a coffee with you, I want to laugh and smile the way only you could make me.
I miss you like crazy.
I wonder if you know just how many lives you touched?
How your sons and daughter are missing their dad so very much?
Now a new day has dawned, I stare at where you used to lay your head - I close my eyes and I see your face; hugging my pillow so tight my heart breaks, it hurts so much.
We have been so entwined together and loved each other so deeply for over half of my life.
We rarely fought, did we?
Although when we did one of us would make sure that everything was okay before we closed our eyes.
I have never met anybody that had a relationship like ours.
It was truly the most loving, sensual, respectful and giving relationship between two people.
I am so thankful that our four children will grow up knowing how a relationship should be like.
Alan, I love you."