ONE year ago Sharon Edwards held her son's newborn daughter for the very first time.
One month ago, the teacher was reported missing by her estranged husband after failing to show up to her work at Coutts Crossing Public School.
Mrs Edwards' granddaughter Harlow celebrated her first birthday on Wednesday, and the doting grandmother should have been there to celebrate, but there is still no trace of the much-loved Grafton woman.
Waiting for answers and unable to grieve, son Eli Edwards said it was a bittersweet milestone.
"We had planned to have a party on Saturday but we thought it wouldn't be right because mum was meant to come up for that," he said.
"Things like that are really difficult."
With only a couple of months before Eli and his fiancé Jess plan to marry in Bali, a lot of people have asked him if it will still happen.
"For now I've said yes, but it won't be the same without mum there," he said.
The last information the family received from police was a revelation on April 1 that they believed Mrs Edwards may have been in the Lawrence area in the early hours of Sunday, March 15 and the news the investigation had changed from a missing persons case to a homicide.
"It wasn't good news but it was news," Eli said.
"It's an open investigation so they're obviously limited to what they can tell us, but at least now we feel like the police have some leads."
The last confirmed sighting of Mrs Edwards was at her home in Grafton on the Saturday night.
Police said Coutts Crossing, Lawrence and Grafton all remained areas of interest in trying to piece together the 36 hours between her last sighting and being reported missing.
As the investigation into the disappearance of Leeton teacher Stephanie Scott was splashed across newspapers and televisions, the Edwards family knew just how Ms Scott's family felt.
"I heard it on the news and immediately thought 'Oh no, not another one'," Eli said.
"Once I found out the outcome it was horrible but I felt a bit of relief for the family. I know exactly what they were going through."
Eli said the longer the wait, the harder his mum's disappearance became to deal with.
"I can't even grieve and I don't know how to feel. I don't know whether to be sad or angry or what," he said.
"I spoke to (brothers) Josh and Zac and they're in the same boat. We just want some answers but there's not much we can do but wait."
Coffs Clarence crime manager Detective Acting Inspector Kingsley Chapman said Strike Force Burrow, formed to investigate Mrs Edwards' disappearance, was following a number of lines of inquiry and was still appealing for information from the community.
"We've had a strong response to previous appeals but we're definitely pushing more information," he said.
An update on the investigation is expected next week.
For now, Mrs Edwards' three sons and estranged husband, who is now living primarily at their Riverdale Ct home, are taking each day as it comes.
"I talk to my dad and brothers almost every day," Eli said.
"We're still getting messages about her constantly.
"It's good that everyone's still thinking about her."