THE grandmother of missing New South Wales boy William Tyrrell has told of her realisation that she may never again see the toddler alive.
Natalie Collins told NewsCorp that while some in her family are hoping for a miracle after the boy disappeared 18 months ago, she was no longer one of them.
"I wish he was alive, but I don't think he is," she said.
The three-year-old vanished while staying with other relatives in September 2014.
The vanishing of William has also left the 56-year-old "in hell", Ms Collins becoming too distraught to work.
"I had no job, I had no income," she said.
"I just kept crying and crying and crying about the whole thing."
Police meanwhile are still treating the investigation as a missing persons, and have not ruled out the possibility that William could still be alive.